I had something completely different that I was going to write about this week. I wasn’t going to let the tragic death of Whitney get the best of me. But I cannot stop listening to her songs or watching her music videos. It still feels like a horrible joke is being played…that she’s not really gone.
Take “I Wanna Dance With Somebody (Who Loves Me)” – I remember back in 1989 being four years old and jumping up and down on my parents’ bed singing along. “My Name Is Not Susan” was fun for me because, well, my name isn’t Susan…but my middle name is. I always thought I was clever when I added that line in. Do I need to say anything more about “I Will Always Love You?” Didn’t think so. “Exhale (Shoop Shoop),” “I’m Every Woman,” “Run To You,” ”I’m Your Baby Tonight,” “Didn’t We Almost Have It All,” “Queen of the Night,”…and so many more bring a piece of my childhood back to me. And then there’s “It’s Not Right But It’s Okay.” Quite possibly my most favorite music video she ever did. And “Heartbreak Hotel” has been used for a breakup or two. And her comeback track “Million Dollar Bill” restored my hope. My girl was back; she was the diva and voice I had always remembered her to be.
The Bodyguard? Waiting to Exhale? The Preacher’s Wife? Can’t tell me you didn’t enjoy watching those films either. You can’t lie to me.
Not to brag but Whitney was my first concert; August 1st, 1991 in Buffalo at the Aud and I was 5 years old. In my mind, Whitney and I have a special bond. I may have fallen asleep for the firework show at the end, but I can at least say that I was there.
And that’s what Whitney can say – that she was here. She left her mark on so many lives and inspired many to be confident enough in themselves to ooze sex appeal but always keep it one level above classy. This lady was loved the world over and was a beacon, an icon, and a hero to kids like me. She gave me the gift of anthems and ballads along with lessons in the key of sass.
It’s obviously such a shame that one of God’s gifts to us here on earth was taken so soon; also a shame that the name of the one and only Ms. Whitney Houston will forever be clouded within the mix of drugs and alcohol. It breaks my heart to hear her sing, in a raspy voice, “And every road that I’ve taken/Led to my regret/And I don’t know if I’m gonna make it/Nothing to do but lift my head.” It really tells the tale that mostly everyone ignored or preyed off of; the story of a woman that needed our help, love, and support instead of a series to exploit her habit and abusive relationship.
But whenever I hear a Whitney song now, I won’t let the tears win—I won’t remember the years where she struggled with her addictions and battled her demons. Yet I will smile and reach out to dance with somebody who loves me [and who loves Whitney, too].
Rest in peace, my dear friend. You now join the choir of angels in robes of white and they must be even more thrilled to have you than we were.
iWhits:
- Queen of the Night [http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rFcnGLFGbL8]
- I’m Your Baby Tonight [http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kdSNyYxPAd4]
- My Name Is Not Susan [http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r6qsoP75y4Q&ob=av2e]
- I Learned From the Best [http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YFVnVuTcz9I&feature=related]
- It’s Not Right But It’s Okay [http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6J538b-OLRU&feature=related]
- I Turn To You [http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Pze_mdbOK8&feature=related]
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